you are the poem

sit silently with your self;

listen to your breath, to last

night’s dreams, to the hammer

heart-beats which carried you

 

through. listen again. do you

hear your treble, the shaking

space between your stanzas,

the tremble of your verse?

 

you are the poem.

 

stop letting in all the noise. make

your own noise—just for you. if you

don’t want to rhyme, don’t. let your

capitals go. be un-titled. let the

 

line

breaks

surprise

even

 

you. swim in the imagery, steep in

the buzz of beginning over that of

belonging. watch a being give

birth. you are the poem. it will

 

all be over soon. taste each syl-

la-ble in your mouth, feel the tug

of adrenaline in the pit of your

stomach: the closest to the center

 

of child hood you will ever get

again. take cream in your coffee.

romance your selves and those

clinging to them with satin

 

static. if you take a title, own

it; sing it out with each pulse.

hug the children, love the world,

speak the beauty, love the poem.

 

you are the poem.

 

 

 

 

superstition

you say the earth is my mother;

you remind me that she was there

to make me a mother, to make me

strong. i was a wolf once, and will

be again. many wolves come from me;

this is our tribe. inside, we are great

enough to hold a universe of paradox:

infinite paradigms, parallel lines

running alongside but never touching.

that’s what the circles are for.

we crawl in and out of this pack

design, through the mandala canal,

straight into the mind of god.

while waiting for your phone call

as soon as you leave

i feel it:

 

the immense sadness,

the emptiness, the

 

alone-ness.

 

it makes me wonder

why i’m here; what my

 

purpose is

outside of you;

 

outside of

bringing your life into

 

being.

 

this house, this rent,

this uneaten food in the

refrigerator.

 

as soon as i’m alone,

every thing is vast and open

 

and possible

again;

 

beautifully vacant.

 

it makes me think

and want to create

 

and fill up the spaces

with music and dance and

 

paint.

 

this piano, these poems,

this uncooked

recipe.

 

how can something be

so delicious and so alone—

 

electric in one moment,

and dead the next?

 

it’s a long, long road,

up through this fissure

 

into the dark hollow of

spine.

 

it’s the only way

to move and be moved;

 

it’s the only

way—up, up—

 

and it’s

mine.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

being

dreams are like tethers in reverse.

 

instead of keeping us tied to earth,

they keep our strings connected

back to where we came from—like

the soft lines of an old, old, tree

 

flowing up to the tallest peak.

 

once you climb it,

the only place up

is the moon;

and memory.

 

there are more characters in my dreams

than people in my real life, more land-

scape, more running, more hunting, more

flying: like the husbandry i was made for.

 

the only thinking is the construct i’m in,

and that’s already accounted for. there’s

no room for narrow cerebral being when

the primordial is tugging at your insides.

branch

she walks with flower

blossoms in her hair.

 

the wind put them there.

 

she follows a long line of

seeds trying to be trees.

 

she talks to the dogwood

opening its thousand little

 

mouths in front of her

house. she finally under-

 

stands what some one is

 

saying: look at me, talk to me, stop

what you are doing and see me;

 

go out of your way to go out of your

yard; there are more of us out there—

 

diverse kin across africa, iceland,

the rainforest, grand canyon.

 

dive in: nurture us, make room for us,

build your homes around us, and

 

we will do the same for you.

i want

i want to put a big thick

hard cover in your hands.

 

i want the sands to stop

running; i want to feel them

 

pausing between my toes,

breathing, sweating. i want to

 

stop running from what i love.

i want to reach down and pick up

 

a star-fish in mid-regeneration

and say: this. this is important.

 

i want this world to break wide open

and finally find the love-chest bursting

 

deep down inside. i want to stop hurrying,

i want my girl to stop worrying, i want our

 

time here to mean something, to feel our hands

and feet move like colors in the sky, to know

 

our own voice again, who we were long before

birth, long before the birth-right shoved in.

 

i want to feel the hot rolling waves of desire

and malaise coming off the night. i want, i want

 

to follow that buzzing song straight through

my skin into my heart-grave and beyond.

 

 

train of thought

i am more than these lists running in my head; i am more than this space ship of a body; i am more than a paycheck at the end of the week; i am more than a heavy heart; i am more than a birthing machine; i am more than the maker of chocolate cakes; i am more than a wet dream; i am more than these ten fingers; i am more than these five holes; i am more than this lapse in judgment; i am more than a time marker; i am more than the lover of hide-and-seek; i am more than this train running off its tracks; i am more than these trophy cells; i am more than the keys of this chain, board, lock; i am more than a place to put your pieces; i am more than a piece; i am more than not.